So I've officially graduated from high school, and also finished up the play that happened after graduation so technically was the last thing I ever did in high school, and I have my diploma and my Clark-themed cap, and I know what preorientation program I'm doing...man, it's really hard to believe that I'm what they consider an "adult" even though all this stuff has happened and I'm about to be thrown out into the world.
I mean, can you believe it?
No. Didn't think so. I can't either. I'm not really sure why you can't believe it, but for me? I just don't feel ready! Sure, I'm super excited to get away from home and I really need the space. But that means I have to do things On My Own. Very scary concept. God, I sound like a five year old going to kindergarten for the first time. But honestly that's a little bit what I feel like - college is going to be all new, and very exciting. People I don't know, teachers I don't know...except in kindergarten you don't move into a dorm. And they still give you nap time, and you don't get recess, but you DO get lots of free time, so you can have nap time and recess, and snacks and stuff.
So it can't be that bad, can it?
Anyway. The point is, there are all sorts of weird and new things to deal with now that I'm going off into the world on my own. In some ways I feel like I'm less prepared than other people, because I haven't exactly been the most independent person, and I tend to get myself into these weird and uncomfortable situations, and I have a short temper. So getting ready for college and then going? It's going to be quite the adventure.
And now you get to read about it. I'm not sure if you should be glad of that or not...I will most likely become your cautionary tale of how not to prepare for college.
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